Its been a while since I wrote a personal blog, but today I finally got a little “me time” so I thought I would write to you. It was my birthday on the 27th, I turned 24!! I guess its something to be excited about but this year I didn’t feel like celebrating, my first bday without my grandma, my grandfather is in hospital and then there was the fact that I didn’t know what I was celebrating this year. I felt like I didn’t deserve to celebrate because every year I set myself goals and this year the majority have been unfulfilled which SUCKS. I guess I felt inadequate and that my potential has been unfulfilled. Sometimes in life things don’t go our way, regardless of how positive we are or how much we believe, some things perhaps are not meant for us or maybe they are just not meant for us now. By foccussing on everything I haven’t accomplished I was being negative and forgot all the things I have. Sometimes when we have a negative spiral of thoughts we have to flip them on their head and think on a different level to see things more clearly. I have this book where I write quotes I like, and I opened this one the other day,
“Our worst fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, ‘Who am I to be brilliant gorgeous, talented and fabulous?’ Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God; your playing small doesn’t serve the world. There is nothing enlightening about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear our presence automatically liberate others.”
Well after reading that, the light and positivity jumped back into me and the doubts all vanished, its amazing how words off a page can really speak to us sometimes. I don’t understand why I felt it was too late to accomplish what I wanted, I’m not where I imagined I would be at 24 but theres still a whole year of 24 left and then theres 25 and 26 and 27 etc lol (hopefully anyways haha 🙂
As long as we are here it’s never too late so 24 is gonna be about trying harder and making my dreams come true! Hope that little passage put some fire back in your belly too!
Lots of Love,