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Love Yourself

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Some of those quotes might seem really negative when you first read them, but read them again and let them empower you. It ties in with the last quote I posted. Realise that nobody will love you the way you should love yourself, that most of our issues with other people stem from the inability to be adequate for ourselves, if you really knew your own worth, you wouldn’t hang around long enough to allow somebody to make you feel like that. I’m not just talking about relationships with a partner, I’m talking about friends, family, colleagues…all kinds of relationships.

Sometimes when I feel upset or let down, I think somebody else has made me feel like that, but really I allowed them to. I think many of us have had countless people who we really love, that we would do anything for, make us feel that we just do not matter to them and it really hurts but ask yourself why? Its probably because you gave too much…there was probably a point months or years ago where you should have stopped but because you are family or have been friends forever you didn’t want to. Expectations hurt and its best to only have them for people that have a track record of never letting you down, of course this changes as we “grow up” but I think you should always be aware of having people in your life with the purpose to water your soul. Surround yourself with people who help you grow, who make you laugh louder, who make you see the world in a different light but most importantly, remember nobody will feed your soul like you can so learn to love yourself ❤

I will leave you with this video from the amazing Mastin Kipp 

The One That Got Away Was Supposed To

I just read this piece on Elitedaily.com by Skylar Rack and loved it. Its really well written and I think she makes a really good point that you should never stay with someone who really isn’t worth it. I especially think its always important to recognize when something is good for you and when it is not. Although it may seem hard, give yourself the opportunity to choose happiness and walk away.

Like many stories, it all started out as young love. My tale features two bright-eyed 17-year-old kids, spending summer days boating on the lake and winter nights laid up, cozy by the fire.

Conversations included pouring our hearts out at 3 am, telling each other that going to two different colleges in the fall could never undo a love like what we had.

Maybe if we went to the same university rather than ones two hours apart, things would be different and we would still be together. But, guess what? There really was never a chance of that happening, and that’s okay.

I’m currently a second-semester senior, reflecting on the last four years of my life: the friends I’ve made, the memories I wouldn’t trade for the world and all of the lessons I’ve learned.

I never thought it would take me almost four years to realize that the guy into whom I foolishly put all my faith was never really mine, and I was never really his.

We broke up a handful of times between freshman year and the fall of senior year, and the reasons were always the same. It would start off as drifting away — texting less, missing Skype dates, fewer phone calls, no more weekend visits.

Then, after a few weeks, he would tell me we needed to break up because this was all too unfair to do to me, and that he’s just too busy to keep me happy.

I always heard him out, but I didn’t always understand. Was I really that hard to keep happy? Was sending a handful of texts a day really that hard? Was I really not worth a thought every now and then?

Eventually, a few weeks would always go by and he would come back to me, crying to reconcile, and I would give in. We would briefly discuss what went wrong, and he would tell me he would try harder to not be so selfish. Of course, I believed him.

The months we would then spend as a couple again would feel just like the good old times, but it was never long before the creeping sensation of something missing would fill up my gut, and I imagine his as well.

I would start to feel extra insecure about how strong his feelings were for me, we would bicker more and I would notice his promises of keeping me happy fading away as each week passed.

I found myself sacrificing huge needs in order to keep him around. I would tell him no phone calls during the week was fine, we would just text more. Then, once the texting halted, I forced myself to believe that we were okay with talking every other day.

I fooled myself into believing that he really wanted to be with me because he told me he did, and more importantly, he told me he loved me. This, I realize fully now but tried to deny then, was so crazy pathetic on my part.

The time finally came when I could not take it anymore. We had just returned from a not-so-perfect trip to Jamaica and were about to head back to school to start our senior years. We promised to see each other the second weekend of school, but we just couldn’t last until then.

The same old excuses from him came up again — that he just couldn’t make any time for me, couldn’t send me a text during the day because he was too busy and couldn’t call me because he lost his phone. I had had enough.

I finally stood up for myself and told him that I couldn’t be with someone who was too selfish to fulfill my simplest needs in a relationship.

I was tired of the lying, tired of trying to get his attention, tired of trying to be someone who I just wasn’t just to keep an egotistical guy around in my life.

Why was I putting all of my effort into a relationship that felt like torture when it was clear that he would never give me all of himself in the first place?

We cut off contact that day and haven’t spoken since. I would like to say that it was an easy thing to bounce back from, but there were the typical nights of binge-drinking, bottles of wine and staying buried under my covers with Netflix.

Now, I’ve come to the point of realizing that the relationship was mostly filled with suppressing my intuition and far too much immaturity to ever make it.

The fact that he was never meant to stay in my life was just one of the few lessons I’ve learned on my journey thus far.

After a lot of downtime and self-reflection, here’s some of the best advice I can give to anyone who has felt this way:

Do not expect a selfish guy to make you a priority in his life.

EVER. It does not matter if you are 16, 25 or 45 — a selfish guy may tell you what you want to hear and could even believe it himself for a short amount of time.

But, nothing will get in the way of himself, not even a sweetie like you. There will probably be repercussions for trying.


Stick to your guns.

Do not let someone sway you to feel a certain way, no matter what. Love is blind, very, very blind. But I promise, your intuition always knows when something is not right for you.

Let it guide you, and do not give up anything that you know is necessary for your personal happiness. Say you’re angry when you’re angry, and tell someone when you feel like you might have gotten the short end of the stick. Being meek in life gets you nowhere.


Real life will never live up to the expectations in your head.

Girls create straight-up fantasies how their lives will go: Marry your college sweetheart, have some kids and perhaps a nice crib in the suburbs. Nah, girl. Life will throw you curveballs, and your expectations will smack you right in the face with reality. Learn to take it for all that it’s worth.


Never wait around for something that may never happen.

I wanted to tell myself that he would be the perfect guy once we were done with college and worrying about distance, but obviously I needed Cupid to pull his arrow out of my ass. When someone shows you his or her true colors, believe it.

The only thing that’s true about that movie, “He’s Just Not That Into You,” is that he really probably just isn’t that into you.


Realize the power is always in your hands; choose happiness.

Things could always be worse. If losing a crappy guy was the worst thing to happen to you, see it as a blessing. You want people around you who will lift you up and make you realize your full potential. Create happiness around you, and tell all your potential haters, “Bye, Felicia.”


I need to end this by saying that being selfish at a young age is not necessarily a bad thing, but I do believe that when a person knows he or she only wants to focus on him or herself, it is beyond unfair to bring a romantic interest into your mess.

I personally believe time spent alone and single is vital at a young age, but I also know that sharing different stages of your life with someone special can be just as beneficial.

Know where you stand on the spectrum, but also remember heartbreak will always come and go during your life. Always take away a lesson from it.

Yes, it started out as young love, and that’s where it stayed. It never had the chance to mature or to become wiser because one of us was not ready for that commitment. And, that’s okay.

Because now, I get to do that on my own.

Trust Vs Happiness

We all experience betrayal in life but it makes us grow and teaches us not to trust so easily rather then to never trust again. Its OK to be afraid of trusting someone but its not OK to be bitter and decide to never give them a chance, you are only stopping yourself from growing and moving forward!

Z x

Why Settle For A Crutch When You Can Have A Cast?

So on my travels over the last few months I have met a lot of amazing people and we have shared plenty of stories. I feel it has been a great learning curve for me and really eye opening. Often we discuss the subject of relationships, past or present. I find a lot of people when in love don’t see what is really happening “love is blind” as they say.Yesterday we were talking about how partners support each other through times of need, what many people don’t realise is a shoulder to cry on is sooooo not what you need in a partner. That doesn’t make them supportive, “don’t settle for a crutch when you can have a cast” I know I made a weird analogy but its so true. A crutch just holds you up while you are broken but a cast supports you while healing you and making you stronger. Just because someone’s always there to cuddle you it doesn’t mean they are necessarily what you need. You need someone who will not only lift you out of your hole but board it up after so you never fall in there again. So if you have someone who motivates you, makes you see what you can do to change your situation, keep a hold of them. If you have been depressed for months or years but think your partners cuddles are the only reason you got through …..this reality check is for YOU. Without them you might be able to find the strength to really pick yourself up again :)Lots of love x

Learning To Let Go

Sometimes we realise a relationship in our life is doing more harm then good, whether that be with a friend or a partner. It is difficult to let go of negative feelings and often they can manifest into something more so it is important to deal with them before they cause more damage then neccessary. I found the following article on achangeinthinking.com and I thought it hit the nail on the head! Sometimes we know what we have to do but actually doing it is a different story. I hope this helps you find a happier path :

The Art of Letting Go is a very simple but powerful process that enables
you to let go of negative emotions that are holding you back from health,
happiness and the accomplishment of your goals. It works on a very
simple principle: I am responsible for my emotions and that I choose the
thoughts that sustain my emotions.
For the most part, most of us relate to our emotional state as something
we have no choice about. Events happen in our lives and it seems to us
that it is the events themselves that cause us to feel what we feel. If
someone has done something to offend me and I am hurt I say in effect,
“You hurt me” or “You made me angry.” And unless the person “changes
his ways” or perhaps apologizes then I am stuck with the negative
emotion. Human beings have learned a variety of different approaches all
motivated by a need to somehow deal with painful or undesirable
emotions but mostly to no avail. One approach that we all know well is to
suppress and repress our feelings. We believe on some level, “if I can just
bury my feelings then all will be well.” But It never works. Repressing our
emotions does not make them go away and these emotions continue to
have an effect on our lives. They may transform themselves into physical
illness and at best leave us with a low-grade unhappiness that colors
every aspect of our existence.

There are hundreds of other ways that we go about trying to deal with our
emotions. We see certain self destructive or self-defeating behavior in
ourselves and others but mostly we are unaware of what motivates these
behaviors. In most self-destructive behaviors, the motivation is typically to
help us deal with certain unpleasant or painful feelings. As destructive or
negative as certain behaviors are, we can always find a positive function
for that behavior and that function is to help us cope with or eliminate
unwanted emotions. But sooner or later we discover that certain
strategies stop working.

I may turn to drugs and alcohol or other addictive behavior to take away
anxiety or grief. It may take away the pain at least for the time but then I
must continue to use the substance over and over because the pain
keeps coming back.

I may try to express my emotions to those whom I am in relationship. And
without any sense of responsibility for what I’m feeling will blame those
around me. I say in effect, “you are responsible for how I feel and so
therefore you must change so I don’t have to feel this way.” And so the
blame game goes on ad infinitum until it eventually leads to the ending or
at best the uneasy toleration of the relationship.

I may try to change my behavior and decide to “do good” or “do the right
thing” and please others around me. I will turn over a new leaf, make new
years resolutions, promise myself that I won’t do such and such again and
before I know it I am right back where I was. “I can never change,” I might
tell myself.

I might seek out and read all of the self-help books I can put my hands on
hoping that there is an answer hidden somewhere in the pages. An insight
or a technique works for a while, I feel better but alas it suddenly stops
working. “How come it worked before and now it doesn’t work,” I quietly tell
myself.

Maybe I will try religion to help save me from these wretched feelings. I’m
feeling better because I’m hearing inspirational things but still, there are
uneasy feelings I know I haven’t dealt with.

Or maybe therapy will help. So I go into therapy for months or even years
and years digging up the past, analyzing my emotions, and getting insight.
It feels good to “get things out” but when is it over? Is there ever an end?
Will I ever figure it all out?

So maybe medication could help. The psychiatrist tells me I have a
chemical imbalance. At least I have an explanation for it all and I feel
somewhat better but am I really solving the problem?

If any of these strategies are familiar to you it is important to recognize
your positive motivation — to eliminate or somehow cope with unwanted or
painful emotions. It is not that any particular approach is “bad”; it is simply
that it doesn’t work without taking responsibility for our inner world. On
some level we want and deserve to be happy. But rarely do any of these
approaches really help us see that we are our own worst enemy. When
we can see clearly that we create and are responsible for our own
unhappiness then it is a very short leap to changing this negative state of
affairs.

But what really is the source of my unhappiness? Is it because of my
past? Is it the conditions of my life? Is it because I don’t have enough or
have what I want? Is it because of my partner’s negative behavior? Is it
because people do terrible things and don’t live up to what I think they
should? Is it because of all the terrible things I see happening in the
world? If I have attributed my unhappiness to anything that is going on
outside of me there is only one thing I can do and that is to change, blame
or “fix” what is going on around me. Or, it will lead to a never ending quest
to find answers somewhere, in something, in some person, in some activity, in some book and of course at some time in the future. My
happiness is never available to me right here and now. It is always
somewhere else or some time in the future. I keep looking and looking but
never finding it.

If the source of my unhappiness is not “out there” then where is it? The
simple answer is that it is “in here” in my own thoughts and feelings. And it
is not just the thoughts and feelings themselves. It is the fact that I live inside my thoughts, inside my images, inside my beliefs and don’t see that
I do.

The Art of Letting Go enables you to “step outside” of your emotions,
thoughts, beliefs, and images and see them for what they are — thoughts
and feelings! Thoughts and feelings are both aspects of one experience.
Any experience has these components to it. There are thoughts and there
are feelings or simply “thought/feelings” (coined, “thoughlings”). One
doesn’t precede the other. They are simultaneous events. Many therapies
help you to change your thoughts and beliefs but you may still be living
your life inside that realm. Instead of trying to change your thoughts and
emotions it is possible to simply let them go. You don’t need to analyze
them, you don’t need to figure them out, you don’t need to do anything
with them except let them go and that takes no time at all. When you can
truly let go of that which brings you unhappiness, then and only then can
you replace these emotions with something positive. But as simple as it
sounds to let go of something we all have great resistances to it.

The Art of Letting Go takes you through some fundamental but essential
steps to the final release of certain feelings. The first step is to create an
environment to tell your story. We all need to be listened to and
understood exactly the way we are and what has happened in our past.
The next step is to help you identify your troubling emotions and the
things you tell yourself that keep those emotions alive. By pinpointing your
emotions and thought processes you are getting a handle on the nature
of your unhappiness.

The next step is to evaluate whether these emotions and thoughts
(“thought/feelings”) are bringing you happiness or misery, whether they
are helping you or hurting you, what these emotions are actually doing to
you. By seeing clearly the negative impact of certain emotions and
thoughts, you discover your motivation to release them because you want
to be happy.

Another step is to determine who is truly responsible for these troubling
emotions. While you may attribute “cause” outside of yourself, by
choosing to take responsibility for them you empower yourself to be the
one who is in charge. You cannot let go of anything that you first don’t
“own” for yourself.

The next step is to evaluate whether you have the ability to let it go. This
step is a natural outgrowth of the last. When you can see clearly that you
are responsible for this emotion, when you see clearly that you are
holding on to it, then of course you have the ability to let it go. If you are
holding something in your hand you certainly have the ability to let it go
but you may not yet have the willingness.

One of the most important steps of the whole process is to then evaluate
whether you are willing to let go. Our resistances to anything always
reside in our will. The fact that we don’t or won’t activate our ability to do
something, especially something that may be in our best interests, is
usually the result of fear. And fear takes many forms.
I am afraid of being hurt again
I am afraid of failing
What if it comes back?
I’m afraid of losing control
I’m afraid of being dominated
and on and on…
It is important to realize that we all have resistances to letting go. In many
ways we are attached to the very condition we say we don’t want. Holding
on may be the source of my pain but at least it is familiar. I soon discover
that the fears I have about what will occur if I decide to let go is already
happening.
Letting go takes no time at all. What takes time is working through your
resistances. You are unwilling but that is only because you are afraid. And
you are only afraid because of what you believe will happen. But what you
are afraid will happen if you let go is already happening. And if what you
are afraid will happen is already happening then the next big question is,
“what do I have to lose? The better question is “What do I have to gain?
The answer is everything — everything that is important to you, which is
your own happiness and peace of mind.

Once you realize that you are the creator of your own experience and that
you have created the negative experience you have and have succeeded
in letting go of it, the next step is to decide what you want to replace that
experience with. When you realize that you have created a negative
experience and once you have succeeded in letting go of it then you can
choose to create a new possibility in its place.

Knowing yourself as the creator of your experience is heretical to your
ego, which rests on the very foundation of being a victim of your
experience. Your ego actually lives in the illusion of power because of its
ability to resist. In fact, that is what the ego’s existence is based
on-resistance-and to let go would mean the ego would cease to exist. So
naturally, the ego has an investment in holding on. But the fact that you
hold on is only because you have identified with your ego and so
therefore to let go would feel as if you won’t exist. But the truth is, you are
not your ego
and when you have succeeded in letting go, you discover
you are still around but also a much happier human being.

As it takes no time to let go, it also takes no time to create an experience.
Creating an experience is instant and is outside the realm of time. Manifesting an experience is another thing and is inside the realm of time.
It is where action comes into play. It is how we have what we create. But
the reality is that we already have what we created. If we have a lot of
negativity in our lives we can rest assured that it is a result of manifesting
a negative experience that we created. So if you want a mirror of your
internal world, take a look at what is happening around you. It is often the
result of your own creation!

If you are reading these words from your own ego, you may hear it as
blame and fault. “So it’s all my fault”, the ego says. But this is what your
ego says anyway, “I am a victim” and so gets into the argument of
determining who is at fault and blaming circumstances outside of you,
which is a clever device for remaining stuck. The ego cannot see the
power of taking responsibility for your experience because the ego has an
investment in holding on. Knowing that you are the creator of your
experience is the most liberating moment of your life because you realize
that your happiness is available to you right here and now.